QUIT TRYING TO BE SPIRITUAL!
The UNIVERSE already is your OUTRAGEOUS LOVER! Be kinder, more patient, share your creative and soul gifts more often, be intensely aware of your thoughts, feelings, words and deeds and forgive and laugh at yourself every day. Connect hourly with the Pure Awareness watching all of this. Your true self is actually this base of reality from which observing rises.
If you try to be something you are not, whatever idea you have of spirituality from your particular tradition or part of the world, you limit your authentic being from unfolding naturally. Go to “holy” places be with “holy” people, but it is a game you are playing until you accept the mantle of who you are, here, right now. There is no waiting for the universe to step in and love you outrageously!